Chasing Happy

Obliviously Chill

Chasing Happy

This week has been an interesting one so far.  I’ve been trying to take these mood enhancers that I had fallen out of the habit of taking on a daily basis.  According to my wife it makes a huge difference when I am taking them, versus when I am not.  However on Wednesday night they caused me to more or less forget that I had a raid to attend.  I was sitting there happily on the sofa watching Daredevil Season 2 and screwing around in Destiny through the official remote play application… and next thing I know around 9pm I check into Slack and realize that I had completely blown off the Wednesday night WoW Raid thing.  Thankfully they were able to make it work without me, which is awesome…  but I was otherwise completely oblivious to having anything going on that night.  Like in the back of my head there was a vague feeling that I was supposed to be doing something, but I was so chill that apparently I never actually acted upon that thought.  I partially blame Daredevil because really, this season so far has been enthralling.  I only started watching it Wednesday night because our cable box was uncooperative, and I couldn’t seem to get anything else up on the screen.

I’ve been feeling generally disconnected from the world, and my hope is that the happy pills will help to curb that instinct and allow me to actually participate in it again.  I’m not even certain what caused me to stop taking them, other than one day I simply forgot… and the next day I forgot… and so on until I was out of the habit.  I’ve had quite a bit of work stress lately, combined with the stress of all of the home renovation “change” has kinda pushed me into another funk.  After a sequence of bad mental health days, I came to the realization that I really should be taking them again.  When I am not doing great, I tend to throw up this wall and paint a happy face on it… then duck behind it hoping the world will go away.  I realize this is largely a defense mechanism, but it feels so much safer behind the wall than out in front of it interacting openly.  Everything feels like it is buzzing past so fast that I can’t really grasp what is going on, or who is attempting to interact.  So when I am sitting in this mode I spend a lot of time staring at things, without actually understanding what I am looking at or how it actually relates to me.  One of the things I have tried to do with this blog is be pretty open about whatever is going on with me…  even if it is the not so great stuff.

Warlock vs Oryx

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Through the course of playing Destiny I managed to push all three classes to 40, but some of them get a lot less use.  Namely my Warlock has kinda become the unloved child of the bunch, because no matter how much I try… I never can seem to get the hang of their damned jump.  It always feels like a much less useful version of the Titan jump.  Hunter makes perfect sense… they have triple or quadruple jump depending on if you have the Bones of Eao equipped.  Warlock jump however never seems to do the thing I want it to do when I want it to do it.  However lately thanks to the magic of the Remote Play application I have been poking around on that character, because in the grand scheme of things… it has the least impact on my other activities.  The problem is that I really have not done much questing.  I ground my way to 40 through the various patrol missions and had not even completed the Taken King content.  So last night I decided to pick up where I had left off in that quest chain, which turns out about four quests from the end of it.  This was a big nuisance since anytime I got one of those ever so lucrative “Patrol the Dreadnaught” bounties, I couldn’t actually do that… and would end up having to complete a story mission to get kill credit.  Over the course of the night however I managed to finish the main story arc of the Taken King and it is ridiculously easy when you are sitting at 292 light.

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Also while doing stuff on the Warlock, I decided to go ahead and do the Stormcaller quest chain so that I could unlock that class.  I have to say having done all of them now, this one was probably my favorite.  I loved the whole “taming the storm” aspect of the quest because it really seems to it the class as a whole.  Now unfortunately I need to just do a bunch of leveling to top off my various subclasses.  I have all three maxed on the Titan, but for the others… I have Nightstalker on the Hunter maxed, and absolutely none of the Warlock classes maxed with Sunsinger being the closest since I figured the whole self rez thing would be the most needed like a Titan bubble.  I wish there were versions of the mark/bond/cloak that increased leveling for classes other than the ones added with Taken King.  Even if you had to do some sort of a quest to earn them, it would be a welcome addition for anyone trying to top off all three classes.  The only problem with running Strikes/Crucible to level is that I feel like I am not entirely effective because I am missing large chunks of my abilities.  So instead I just end up running bounties and screwing around in the patrol missions which seems like the slowest way to level sub classes.  However all of this is great “playing from the couch on the remote play app” fodder so it will probably see a lot more screen time than it previously did.  Before the ability to reliably play remotely, the only time I was really playing Destiny was to go do group activities.  Now I can do a lot of solo questing from the comfort of the living room and it is making me play catch up on all of those things I largely ignored.

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