Turning A Bad Situation
Yesterday was an extremely odd day, where a good deal of it I spent sifting through horrible IRS interface documentation, and then the rest googling phrases in said documentation to try and find better documentation. That alone had me at the literal end of my wits… which we all know are of limited supply in the first place. Then something happened… something that could have been extremely bad. I had an interaction with with a player that I really do not like, that I finally had to distance myself from to keep from losing my shit. Several years ago I wrote about the infamous “Bunny Incident” and I felt like I was nearing the threshold of unfocused profanities flying freely. So I stepped away and went to lunch, then when I finally came back to a device I found out that apparently I was not the only one who had been feeling that way. So what could have been a horrible incident… actually turned into something completely different. I know I am vague-booking here a bit, but I don’t really want to drill too far into the who and what because that isn’t terribly important in the truth because I am focused on what happened afterwards. For awhile now I have been back playing MMOs after what felt like a several month long break from them, but I have been back largely playing by myself. I have been enjoying my time in Rift and ArcheAge, but enjoying things as a solo venture is just different from playing with a large group of people who seem to be equally happy to be playing with you.
So this negative event has seemingly acted as a bit of a catalyst, in a measure that I wasn’t sure was possible. What happened last night is that a large number of us logged into Final Fantasy XIV and spent almost the entire damned evening running content together. It was truly glorious, and was originally focused around the concept of getting people caught up in the storyline but eventually filtered into so many different areas. So from the moment I got home from work, until about 10 pm I spent that entire time hanging out with friends and tanking various things that people needed. I lost track along the way what all we ended up running but I was literally down for anything anyone needed. I helped people get caught up in 3.2 story content, 3.3 story content, the Void Ark, Alexander four… basically a bunch of stuff that folks didn’t want to do solo but were more than willing to tackle with friends. The end result was this amazing blur of laughter and the best aspects of what can happen when you are playing with your friends. Instead of letting one negative event pull us down, we have seemingly galvanized that one interaction into something that I hope will last past the one night.
In talking with my friends throughout the night it seems like we were all waiting for the same thing. For the bulk of our original group to return to playing the game. When you have spent a year and a half struggling together… playing without those folks seems like a hollow proposition. I am thankful for the folks who have kept the home fires burning in the Greysky Armada during this extended absence, because it means we have a free company to come home to. The bulk of yesterdays strife is rooted in a simple miscommunication, like so many conflicts seem to be. Namely there were ground rules set that were never communicated to those of us who had been returning, around what was expected. So when the person in question gave some rather ham-fisted edicts and unfortunately we took them in the worst possible way. I am not really ready to bury the hatchet completely here, and for the time being I really want nothing to do with that person. However what happened as a result has reinvigorated my feelings about Final Fantasy XIV as a whole. I am certain to keep playing Rift, ArcheAge and Destiny… but for a bit I am focused on trying to help my friends get back engaged in the game. Last night really felt like we were getting the band back together, and it was seemingly noticed by the social structure of Cactuar. Tam and I were both welcomed back with open arms by a bunch of folks that we used to interact with on a nightly basis. Just like returning to Rift has felt very much like returning home… coming back last night and playing Final Fantasy XIV with my friends was also very much returning home. There is a level of joy in gaming that I felt last night that I have not felt in so many months… and it was intoxicating.