I want to lead off this mornings post with a little bit of exciting news. So over the last few weeks you have no doubt noticed the Twitch madness I have been involved in. That is probably a tale for a different day, but I am trying to stream significantly more often than I used to. I even have a lot of proper streaming infrastructure set up now including MrAggroBot my fearless chat bot who is getting an adorable avatar that the amazing AmmostArt is currently working on. I have no clue what is going on but I think partially it is due to the fact that I have a super supportive community of folks from various sources that occasionally pop their heads in and say hi. One of the main reasons why I don’t play a ton of single player titles is that they end up feeling like solitary experiences. Sure when I am in super turtle mode that works, but most of the time I want to share my nonsense with someone out there. In the MMORPG world… that is my guild and when I stream a single player game… twitch chat starts to feel a bit like guildchat.
For awhile now I have been a member of the Moogle’s Pom Tavern Discord, largely because it already had a significant number of my friends collected in one place. I knew it was home, much in the same way as the AggroChat slack because I found myself saying good morning to everyone there each day. Now I mostly knew of the Moogle’s Pom Tavern because of their official/unofficial stream team. Official in the sense that it is a fixed thing and invite only, but unofficial as I believe none of the members are Partners and cannot actually create an official team in the eyes of Twitch. With my increase in streaming focus and frequency, I am pleased to announce that I have been invited to the team and now have a banner on my twitch profile talking about it. I am super happy about this revelation because it truly is an amazing group of people and that I am exceedingly happy to be part of.
For those unfamiliar, a lot of the names are ones you have already seen me talk about or host on Twitch… but here goes a full listing (alphabetized because it would have bugged me otherwise).
I highly suggest you check out all of these fine folks and give them a follow. I’ve got them all in my Auto-Hosting rotation so chances are you might see them if you are checking my twitch page with any frequency. The above image is of course not connected to this at all… but since we don’t have an official banner image for the team I decided to find a “Moogle” image to use instead. If you are so inclined you can also check out the Moogle’s Pom Tavern wordpress which should in theory be getting bios for the last few of us shortly (because we need to write them). However the page is current except for me and Visse who were the last few adds to the team.
All of this said I will probably continue to use the BelStreamTime discord when it comes to me going live and chatting with folks because it feels really weird to muscle my way in and take over a discord I am not intimately responsible for. Also it gives me a nice place to integration with twitch and carry over roles and permissions as well as my emoticon. Speaking of which I really need to set up the next few ranks worth of emoticons even though currently I am the only one who could use them. That is another thing that happened over the weekend that seems a bit hard to take. For awhile now the AggroChat crew has been parking their Amazon Prime subsciptions on me because they knew it made me feel super awkward about it… and it is apparently fun to pick on the Bel. Sunday however during my stream I had a long time friend throw a legitimate subscription and some bits my way and I have this weird mix of “I am incredibly grateful” and “no don’t do that! I am not worth your money!”.
I am still not entirely sure how I feel about this whole subscription thing. I feel happy that my friends want to support me, but I also feel super awkward taking any of their money. I could reconcile them giving me a prime sub… because it was a thing they got for free that wasn’t being used anyways. Now that I am getting some actual subs I just want to push the money back into their pockets and tell them “no no no you don’t understand, you are throwing your money away!”. I am weird at accepting recognition in any form… like when it happens at work I want nothing more than to crawl under my desk and hide until no one notices me. The problem there is that now I am a manager over three teams… and I can’t exactly do that anymore. I think maybe my recent foray into Twitch mirrors the transformation I have had to make in the real world, where I am publicly “on” more than I used to be.