Compartmentalism and Media

This is going to be a bit of a charged topic that I tackle this morning. It is not going to be for everyone, but it is still something I feel like I need to talk about. Normally I break up my posts with a bunch of colorful screenshots and images, but due to the gravity of this topic, I am going to forgo that. Apologies for the “walls of unbroken text” that is to follow. I am an aging geek and grew up during the 80s and 90s as a result many of the things that I still love to this day are deeply tainted by issues with either the subject matter itself or the person who created it. For example, I grew up loving the Cosby Show and Fat Albert was deeply foundational media for me. I remember listening to Bill Cosby comedy tapes and even to this day I still have to stop myself from quoting random shit from all of those. Bill Cosby is a fucking monster, and aging in many ways is learning just how wrong you were about the people you thought were cool growing up. I have friends who can lop off the limb that was the love of whatever the thing was, and move on with their lives. I’ve never been able to do this, however, I also don’t want to support the thing anymore and end up holding all of these thoughts in a complex mental tapestry. One of my favorite novels of all time is Santiago by Mike Resnick. It is this great wild west in outer space read that predates Firefly popularizing that sort of setting. Resnick has some serious problems and maybe is not something that I really want to support any more. However, it does not stop me from loving Santiago and the shared universe that he created of outer space nonsense and fables. Similarly, Orson Scott Card is pretty fucking awful, and not the sort of person that I want to be supporting either. That does not stop the fact that Enders Game and the sequence of novels that followed it were deeply foundational to my young science fiction reader brain. Then there is my love of the Cthulhu mythos and having to contend with the fact that H.P. Lovecraft and his extremely disturbing views are embedded directly in that setting. My entire childhood when taken out of context is littered with moments that just no longer work or synchronize with my core beliefs. So many movies that I still hold close to my heart have deeply sexist, homophobic, or straight-up racist undertones that exist in the background. God forbid we go outside of my generation and start exploring the black-and-white era of film and the many issues with the themes and assumptions those films contain. I miss being able to feel pure joy about the things that I love, but that is also part of growing up and realizing that almost everything that you once cared about is tarnished in some way. I think there are essentially three ways to handle this conundrum. The first is to say you don’t give a shit and keep on consuming and ultimately funding the problem. The second is to completely wall yourself off from anything that has issues and exorcise those things from your life. The third path tends to be the one that I travel down. It is to appreciate the good of the thing, while also understanding the harm that it has caused and do your best to not actively support it. The third path is a bit hard to walk at times and often means you are going to stumble along the way but that you are still striving to “do no harm”. It is important that we understand and accept the problems with the things that we love, but I feel like it isn’t necessary to stop loving them. Now we zoom forward to the situation we find ourselves in, where J.K. Rowling is an awful human being that does real and tangible harm to my friends. However I still very much love Harry Potter and that setting and the novels are wrapped up in so many personal memories. I joined the series a bit late and the very first-midnight release that I remember attending was for Goblet of Fire. After that, it became a thing that both my wife and her sister that is no longer with us shared together. With Goblet of Fire we tried to share one novel between the three of us, and by the time Order of the Phoenix came out we were buying three copies so we could all start reading at midnight. I’ve got quite a bit of Harry Potter kitsch laying around the house that was accumulated over the years. However, once the great unmasking of J.K. Rowling as the serious villain that she happened, I stopped buying anything Harry Potter related. I shifted into the same mode that I have been with other problematic creators. I might purchase a book at a Thrift store where a charity is profiting from that sale, but would never purchase a new copy of anything from retail because I did not want to actively be supporting them. There are also times when piracy is the only ethical form of consumption, so that is also absolutely not off the table either. Whatever the case I did not want to be funding the creation of products and therefore lining the pockets of the creator who has shown themselves to not be worthy of our adoration. I am by no means perfect in walking this line, but I am going to do my best because, at the end of the day, it is more about my own belief structure than some performative action. I will admit, in another time and another sequence of events I would absolutely be playing Hogwarts Legacy. Everything I have seen about it in passing looks like it is a really fun game. However, I am not going to be playing it because I do not want to be supporting the monster that is ultimately getting large licensing payments as a result of it. I get that there are good people who created that game, and spent loving care placing those assets and writing those quests, but it is all too murky for me to be able to sift that from the fact that a bad person is directly benefiting from the licensing agreements. Moreso it is that those royalty payments will likely directly support causes that seek to do harm to my friends that are transitioning. This is a very real concern for me specifically as I live in a state that is actively attempting to outlaw the existence of transfolk, so it is not exactly a hyperbolic dog whistle where I stand. I will not be playing Hogwarts Legacy, and I firmly believe that you should not either. Will I cut you out of my life if I do? No, because it is not for me to decide your actions. I will however be disappointed in you. Ultimately your actions have to come down to your own personal beliefs and your own conscience. If you can keep actively supporting folks who do harm in the world, then that is on you and not on me. I’m never going to personally attack you over your actions, but I will remember them. Essentially every friendship you have is a weighing of the good attributes with the bad ones. There are times when you have a realization that a person is doing more harm than they are good, and ultimately cut them out of your life. I have lots of family members that I still love dearly, but that have unfortunate traits. My Grandmother was pretty fucking racist, but I still loved her with all of my heart. When someone says that they don’t want to have to care about “politics”, what they are really saying is that they don’t want to be judged for their actions and I am sorry… but we are all judged for our actions. No one gets a free pass, and just because something has no personal impact on you… does not mean that the action has no impact at all. If you are going to play Hogwarts Legacy, I would ask that you at least wait to purchase your copy until you can get one secondhand so you are at least diminishing the harm you are causing. I still do truly love Harry Potter and the story that I fell in love with all those years ago, but I’ve made the conscious decision to stop supporting it. I still own the novels and the movies from the “before I knew she was awful” times and even some Lego sets that I might one day get around to putting together, but I won’t be consuming anything new that gets released. I feel like I want to do as little harm as I can while I am on this planet. There are absolutely ways in which I am failing miserably at that. I know that and I own that… but I can give up playing this one game. I care about the safety of my trans friends more than I care about this one thing. The post Compartmentalism and Media appeared first on Tales of the Aggronaut.

AggroChat #228 – Let’s Go Catch Em All

Featuring:  Ashgar, Belghast, Grace, Kodra, Tamrielo and Thalen

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Tonight we talk about a bunch of things starting off with the interesting and also sort of weird experience of watching a movie, and having a live orchestra play the soundtrack.  Ash talks about his experiences with the new Spyro the dragon and the practice of modernizing games without really changing the original gameplay. From there we talk about the insanely charming Pokemon Let’s Go game and how it is seemingly way more sticky for a few of us than core Pokemon games.  Tam and Kodra talk about how with Diablo 3 on the Switch they finally understand what Grace and Bel see in this game. Grace talks a bit about the new Netflix She-Ra. Bel talks about his disappointment in the newest Hellgate: London steam release. Finally we end up in a lengthy conversation about Fallout 76 multiplayer and how this game does not deserve the grief reviewers have been heaping on it.

Topics Discussed:

  • Orchestra Plus a Movie
  • Spyro
  • Pokemon Let’s Go
  • Diablo 3 Switch
  • She-Ra
  • Hellgate: London
  • Fallout 76

AggroChat #113 – Who Needs Rails?

Ashgar, Belghast, Grace, Kodra, Tam and Thalen talk Harry Potter, Steam Sales and LARPing sorta

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To say we went off the rails while recording this show is to put it mildly.  Not sure what was going on.. If it was just the general slap happy nature of being a long holiday weekend for all of us… or if something was in the water.  It starts with me almost botching the introduction… and winds through a long series of tangents that I have no way of really properly mapping without thoroughly relistening to the show and documenting all the topic changes.  We talk Harry Potter, and the new American Houses.  However we also talk a whole bunch about where we ourselves fit into the Pottermore sorting hat quiz.  I am apparently the only one that was surprised I sorted Gryffindor.

From there we get into a lengthy discussion about the Steam Discovery Queue and how sometimes it just gives the equivalent of a shrug emote.  We also talk about how Steam is starting to feel like the various mobile app stores, with a slew of clone games for pretty much any genre.  We delve into a topic about how MMOs actually make you less of a well rounded player.  Namely that when you are playing an MMO… it becomes extremely hard to pull yourself away for those single player experiences.  This devolves into brief discussions of Riders of Icarus, ArcheAge and Final Fantasy XIV.  We talk about how cool it would be to get the band back together of sorts in that game.  Finally we go into a long discussion about LARPing… or more so the kind of LARPing Kodra is used to that doesn’t quite sync with a bunch of the experiences we had with it.

Loose List of Topics

  • Harry Potter Stuff
  • Ilvermorny
  • The Sorting Hat
  • Steam Sale
  • The Discover Queue
  • MMOs are bad for the well rounded gamer
  • Riders of Icarus
  • ArcheAge
  • Final Fantasy XIV
  • What Kodra Means by LARPing
  • What the rest of us have experienced in LARPing

AggroChat #108 – Because Morality

Ashgar, Belghast,  Kodra, Tam and a super rambly show filled with lots of topics

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This week we are down to a much smaller core for the AggroChat podcast with Thalen off exploring Japan and making us all jealous, and Grace needing to deal with some family stuff.  The irony is there was a time when three members of the podcast was the norm but it is funny how much smaller the group feels when we are down a few now.  For years I wondered if we would ever get used to recording with as big of a group as we often do… and I guess the answer to that is a resounding yes.  As far as the show… this is yet another one of those “do we have anything to talk about?” episodes that ends up developing a life of its own.

Topics Discussed

  • Tanking in WoW and FFXIV
  • Mark of the Ninja
  • Ronin
  • Tenchu
  • Ninja Gaiden
  • Nintendo Articles of Incorporation
  • Rom Hacks
  • Overwatch
  • Fan Fiction
  • Harry Potter
  • Idol Master Xenoglossia
  • BabyMetal
  • LadyBaby
  • Cleveland
  • Infinity Showdown
  • Uncharted
  • Goldeneye