Featuring: Ammosart, Ashgar, Belghast, Grace, Tamrielo, and Thalen
Hey Folks! We are down a Kodra this week but assembled a surprisingly long list of topics. First off Bel discusses the return of Commodore and the new product being released. Blaugust is coming up soon, and Bel is not running it this year. Tam shares the tribulations of trying to upgrade a PC right now, and the expense of hardware. Ash is finally back on the Final Fantasy XVI trai,n and it is really good. Donkey Kong Bananza is pretty great… but completely unintelligible. BPL or Badger Private League is a thing in Path of Exile and watching people participate is wild. Guild Wars 2 announced the Visions of Eternity expansion and we talk a bit about the upcoming features. Finally, Tam dives into a topic about how you get players to actually communicate with each other in games… and we brainstorm ways to make those interactions happen.
Good morning folks. I am slowly getting back to my normal self. It is going to be a long road… covered with many potholes… but bit by bit I am returning to some resemblance of the person I was. I got a second good night of sleep, and probably would have gotten more hours were it not for the fact that my mom called as I was heading to bed… and then talked for an hour and a half. I love her… but she has never known social queues and also has zero chill when it comes to not telling me everything that she is thinking at that exact moment. She like everyone simply cares about my well being and is worried about me. Legitimately… I never knew this many people actually cared. I’ve mostly thought of myself as background noise most of the time, but apparently I am noticed and appreciated.
My friend Krikket has gotten the ball rolling on the Blaugust 2025 festivities with the traditional Blaugust is Coming post detailing all of the information. My mind went in a bajillion directions when my wife passed away, but one of them was to go into the mentor area of the Blaugust discord and admit to them that I could not do this. Krikket was the first person to offer to take up the mantle, but almost immediately everyone chimed in and just ran with it. This is the most beautiful thing for me because I wanted to build some semblance of a community that could exist without me… and apparently I did just that. I think it was Wilhelm/TAGN that created the logo… which admittedly captures the essence of pretty much every logo I have ever created. They busily planned in the mentor channel and I sort of let it all wash over me, not really paying much attention until yesterday when the announcement post went live.
I cannot fully express in words how thankful I am that this is going to happen, and that I am not having to touch anything. I am still trying to keep the media kit page updated, since that page gets a lot of hits during the event. You can find relevant things like the sign-up form and links to the various social accounts and discord. I am not 100% sure how much I am going to participate in Blaugust proper but I am signing up. It is going to be interesting taking a backseat to this event, but quite honestly… I am very happy I am not having to drive. That was honestly a thing that I learned with the guild that I lead in World of Warcraft… I mad everything too personal to my vision. In truth with Blaugust I wanted to create something that was malleable and could be formed into whatever vision it needed to take that year. As such I tried my best to keep a light touch on the steering wheel so that if I ever needed to jump from the moving vehicle I could, and let someone else take over. Apparently that more or less has worked.
Rebuilding Normal
I’ve had this string of big deep emotional posts lately, but I am not sure what new revelations I have for you this morning. I’ve come to realize that I was not the one mangling our sheets… because making the bed each morning is as simple of an act as pulling up the corner I turned down. I’ve also decided that laundry is super simple since I almost entirely wear dark colors, and can simply chuck things directly into the washing machine until I have enough to run a load and then run it regardless of what day of the week it is. I ordered a whole mess of Chinese food last night so that I can eat on it for most of the weekend. Other than that I am just trying to carve out something resembling a new normal. I need to talk to my boss this morning and find out how Human Resources wants me to codify all of the time I have been taking. I made some early inroads for dealing with some of the financial and insurance things, but quickly came to the point where I am going to have to have final death certificates before I can actually wrap any of that up.
I desperately need to go out into the garage and clean, so that I am going to have room to stack the things that will be coming from her classroom. Essentially on the day of the visitation, her teacher friends offered to pack up her room for me and separate what were educational resources and what were personal effects into different sets of boxes. The thing is… my wife would have wanted to pack everything up herself, but I am just going to allow them to help me with this thing. My vehicle can hold a lot of stuff and it will be easy enough to drag things home. I just need to clear out some of the boxes that I have not broken down yet, and take a load of cardboard to the recycler in order to make room to stack this new stuff. The ideal time to give away teachers resources is right now, just ahead of a new school year… but I am not sure I am going to have it in me to deal with any of it this year.
She also took up 80% of our closet and I intend to go through all of that at some point and find some organization to donate it to. There is always a high demand for professional clothing that fits larger women’s sizes, especially among the whole “pathway to work” type organizations. So I know at some point I would want to donate that, because there is no use in any of the clothing effective just rotting in my closet. We already regularly donated quite a bit of stuff so I have zero qualms about this being the avenue she would have wanted. Her dad was saying something about selling things… but he has always focused on the money and for me… it is more about helping others than trying to profit from this situation. Sure we spent plenty of money over the years on nice things… but I largely view that as the cost of existing as a human and not something I am going to ever attempt to recoup.
There are things that I want to do… but I have to reach the point where I don’t feel guilty for doing them. Like we had talked about getting rid of the nasty loveseat in the loft, so I am absolutely going to do that. I am however probably going to replace it with another comfy couch option and set up my consoles out there. Originally we had planned on turning it into a reading nook for her to curl up, and that would have been lovely… but that is also not necessarily me. I prefer reading from bed when I am reading books, and then more often tend to consume books in audio book form while I am playing games. So I am will be taking the initial inspiration and then just shifting it to make sense for me. I still want to maintain the living room as a more generic space and don’t want all of my consoles hooked up out there. I have my Switch 2 hooked up but that is about it, and that is also a pretty lightweight affair.
Whenever I deal with giving away the educational resources in her office… I am probably going to start shifting that space into more of a hobby room. I used to love painting miniatures, and I just never really maintained that hobby throughout the years. I liked painting way more than I actually liked playing the war games associated with it. I’ve always wanted to get into 3D Printing, so I am thinking her office might be the ideal place to set that up. Again… I am going to have to reach an emotional point where I can deal with even going into her office… let alone packing it up and giving it again… but someday. I feel guilty even thinking these thoughts. I don’t want to erase my wife from this house, but it also seems silly to have entire rooms of the house that are no longer functional because they were devoted to a thing that will never happen again. She was way less emotional about everything than I am… so I would like to think she would want me to re-engineer the spaces to fit my needs. Its just really fucking hard.
She was always the person who kicked me into action on all of the little ideas that we had. I was the one who was mostly happy with the status quo, because the status quo was simple. I am going to have to channel my wife if I ever want to get anything done. I miss her so god damned much. I am so angry that this happened and I am not sure that will ever change. She was my person, and I never imagined a world without her. Now that I have to deal with that reality… I am trying my best to cope with it. One life ended on July 2nd at 8 pm… and out of the ashes of it I have to figure out how to build a new life.
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Good Morning Folks! Because of the quirks of the calendar, the day that was normally “Tabulation Day” aka September 1st took place on a Sunday. It just so happened that I was rather sick yesterday, and today is a Holiday here in the United States. As a result of both of these things, I pushed my tabulation activities to this morning where I have spent it counting posts on blogs. Huge thanks to everyone who used the self-reporting form, as it was a great boon to speeding this up. Last year was a big year, and I honestly did not expect this year to grow even beyond that… but shockingly we did. Huge thanks to everyone who helped to get the word out, and it still shocks me how well this event works without the existence of Twitter. For years this was largely something that spawned from Twitter for folks who were actively on Twitter, and the last two years have proven to me that it really had nothing to do with that social community and more to do with the spirit of the bloggers who were participating.
Here are some of the Statistics for this year:
116 Blogs Signed Up for Blaugust.
Of Those Blogs 113 Made at least one blog post during the month of August.
We had 67 blogs sign up that had never participated before in a Blaugust Event.
During the past month, Blaugust Participants created 1978 Content Posts.
What has shocked me is that I honestly believed we would have a big drop-off from last year. There were a lot of things at play, it was the 10th year running the event, and Mastodon was booming due to the relative implosion Twitter was experiencing, which then led to a huge surge in DIY tech as folks felt the need to stake their digital claim to some real estate that they controlled out on the internet. This year we’ve continued to see a bit of a broadening of the event as it found its way to new writers. This has led to a few growing pains, because quite honestly… nothing about the way I had been running events really works at this scale. So going forward we are going to need to make some tweaks to the formula to make it a little easier for folks to participate and consume the output. It was an event very light on any sort of scaffolding in large part because many of us have known each other for well over a decade. I still find it wild that any of you are willing to follow me for this nonsense on a yearly basis.
Blauginner Class of 2023
One of the changes that we made mid-flight this year was changing from the terminology of “newbie” to something unique to us… The Blauginner. Newbie has always had a bit of a weird negative connotation and I thought it was time for us to move away from that. Blauginner is something that a friend of mine threw out there when I was shopping for ideas, and it was so silly that I knew we had to roll with it. Each year we lose blogging voices from the community, either because life went in another direction or just plain burnout. One of the core goals of Blaugust, especially after the loss of the Newbie Blogger Initiative has been to stoke new blogging voices and cultivate a renewable resource. As such I think it is extremely important to take time each year to acknowledge the folks who set forth on this journey for the first time regardless if they managed to make any of the other awards.
Now we reach the moment where I talk about the various Awards associated with Blaugust. I tried to carry forward the general styling elements that I ran with during this event when I created the badges. These will all be available on the Blaugust Media Kit in the full-resolution version if you want to snag them for your blog’s sidebar. For anyone who needs a bit of a refresher on our rules, here are the guidelines that the awards are assigned based upon.
Bronze Award – You made at least 5 Posts during the month of August 2024.
Silver Award – You made at least 15 Posts during the month of August 2024.
Gold Award – You made at least 25 posts during the month of August 2024.
Rainbow Diamond Award – You beat the challenge and posted 31 times or more during the month of August 2024.
Before we get to the lists however it is time for my yearly disclaimer. I am a human being and as a result highly fallible. This year’s tabulation was quite daunting given the large number and not reaching out for additional help. If you feel that I made a mistake please feel free to reach out and let me know. Some blog layouts are much harder to tabulate than others… and I do my best to count them all. I am extremely thankful each year for the folks with much more standard layouts, those with self-tabulating calendar widgets, and at a minimum those who use hard date stamps rather than relative ones.
One final note. Authors that have multiple blogs in the competition are tabulated individually for each blog but the award assigned is for the total contribution of the Author.
The Bronze Club 2024
This year we had Thirty-Six folks who managed the feat of posting at least five times during the month of August 2024. Since a lot of this event is about posting more often and finding your own schedule to follow. Five times during the Month of August would be around one post a week… which seems like a completely reasonable schedule.
Traditionally we have this pattern emerge where folks generally either get Bronze or Rainbow, without a lot of folks in between the two extremes. This year given the larger sample size, we had more folks get Silver and Gold but it still more or less fits the same larger pattern. This year we had Nine blogs that managed the feat of posting at least fifteen times during the month of August 2024. To continue the theme of choosing a schedule, this would equate to posting at least three times per week. Especially if you landed on something along the lines of a Monday, Wednesday, and Friday schedule… this also seems completely manageable.
Now we get to the folks who usually have a pattern already and are sticking with it… aka the Gold Club. This has been the territory where I have lived for years in this competition because I largely post weekdays only. This year was particularly fraught for me, and as a result, I barely squeezed by with the minimum number of posts to count as Gold. This year we had Nine blogs that posted at least twenty-five times during the month of August 2024. Keeping the schedule thread rolling forward, this would be around five times per week.
Let’s be honest… the whole Rainbow Diamond thing is a bit nonsensical. Years ago when I decided that maybe posting Thirty-One posts during a single month was a bit harmful and burn-out inducing… I watered down what was the previous highest rank to 25 posts, and then created this “S-Tier” as a way of acknowledging folks who went above and beyond in the event. All of that said I continue to be impressed by the number of folks who end up going for the highest possible award in the event and this year we had Thirty-Four folks who posted at least thirty-one times during the month of August 2024. I am still not entirely certain this is a healthy pace, but it is impressive to see regardless.
Now friends… we get into a bit of controversy. We had two Blaugustans who leaned on large language models heavily for the generation of their content. In coming years we will likely have some sort of an “AI Rider” that describes what is and is not allowed for the event. I mentioned growing pains… and this is one of them. This is an event designed to push folks to create content and at the core of this… is human creativity. As such I just cannot bring myself to list these two contenders on the same list of the others who gained the Rainbow Diamond award, and as such they are getting theirs but with a bit of an asterisk. Technically there was nothing in the rules to stop folks from having a large language model pump out an entry into the event, so technically they accomplished the highest awards… but it does not mean that I have to enjoy the fact. This is probably petty of me, but unfortunately, this is the event that I have kept going, and as I have been reminded many times… it is my call.
To back away from that awkward situation, it is time to actually talk about something good. I think it was two years ago when I first decided to create an honorable mention badge for folks because really I think it should be acknowledged. Signing up for this event, putting yourself out there, and deciding that you are going to try something new really is a lot. Sometimes there are folks who have technical difficulties along the way, or life has other plans, but I still feel like it is important the cherish the willingness to participate. Maybe some of them will return next year, have a better start and even get all the way to the end with a shiny new award to show for it. This year we had Twenty-Six folks who made that very first step.
Every year it seems like I learn some lessons from running this event. I am always exceptionally thankful for all of the help that I get from the mentors. They often act as a sounding board for a number of my ideas. As such there are likely going to be some changes coming in the months between now and the next Blaugust. Not that we have had to deal with much yet, but it is finally time that we create codes of conduct for the event and wrap one of those nifty bots around the discord sign-up process. We did have to deal with some “selling to the community” weirdness this time around, which I was not expecting but should likely receive some clear differentiation between what is promoting your content, and what is promoting your business.
As I said above we will also be tackling the concept of large language models and this competition because I feel like it is important to lay out a framework for what is and is not allowed. None of this is terribly fun, but I guess this is to be expected when we have grown so massively over the last few years. I guess it is time to start treating this event as a proper project and not just something that I do once a year and for some reason other people follow along with. It was a bad year for me across the board, and I did not spend nearly as much time as I had previously engaged with the community. It is a bit of a bummer because it seems like that is really the magic bit of this formula. On the self-tabulation form, almost everyone across the board commented about how much they enjoyed the community. The cool thing is that thanks to the discord… that doesn’t have to stop when September begins.
As I am every year, I am deeply proud of everyone who participated this year. I apologize for being a bit of an absentee leader, but am booned by how well things continue to run in my absence. Again I remind you that I am a deeply flawed and fallible person, and if you find an issue with any of my calculations please reach out and let me know. I did my best to tabulate the posts, but when it relied upon me counting breaks between posts… around twenty-five my eyes occasionally began to fuzz out so my counts might be slightly off in a few places. By the time of posting this, I should have updated the Blaugust Media Kit page with all of the awards, so feel free to snag them and do whatever you want with them. I encourage you to keep blogging and stay active in the community during the coming year. I appreciate you all greatly.
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There is a thread that sprung up on the AggroChat slack that has been largely demonizing the process of leveling in MMORPGs. The consensus seems to be, that games should allow you to immediately drop into content with your friends without any requirement to push through levels and push through gearing. On one level I absolutely get where they are coming from, but on another… I genuinely love the process of leveling. Games struggle to provide content that feels meaningful, but at the same time is generally low-pressure. When you hit the endgame, there is this propensity for expecting that players want the difficulty dial cranked up to eleven. I am fine with difficult content, but I also don’t want things to be “sweaty” all the time. In fact I need large swaths of chill gaming in order to distance out the spikes of frustration.
Yesterday I rolled a brand new Guardian in Guild Wars 2, and I have been having a blast going through the motions of doing a ton of content I have done several times before. However the introduction of leveling and earning new things each time I level… makes the process enjoyable. I am also getting to see story content again with fresh eyes. This is a huge part of why Ace and I rolled alts on Kraken server in Final Fantasy XIV, was to experience those early days of the game all over again. There is something charming about starting over, so much so that there are a few times I have legitimately considered creating an alt account in Guild Wars 2 so that I can see the game with the same eyes I would as a brand-new player. I get that this is not something that most players would want to do… but also I am also a huge proponent of the seasonal model in ARPGs, and after experiencing Pandaria Remix think it might be an interesting thought experiment in MMORPGs as well.
Part of the reason why I end up rolling so many characters during what is effectively a limited event like a Path of Exile league… is that every so often I just get that itch to start over. For example, I have played through Cyberpunk 2077 up to the “Embers” quest chain something around eight or nine times at this point… only actually finishing the game on two of those play-throughs. I could not tell you how many times I have put at least 40-60 hours worth of playtime into a Bethesda game… only to start all over again the next time I get the itch to play one. In Minecraft, I almost never continue in the same world for more than a few weeks at a time because I get this urge to explore and “break” the world and once I have satisfied that urge I can move on with something else. I’ve played through the entirety of Mass Effect start to finish at least four times… with individual segments like my favorite Mass Effect 2 even more times. There is just something comforting and compelling about revisiting some of my favorite games.
So while leveling is a chore to most players… for whatever reason my brain is keyed to crave it. I leveled three characters during the Pandaria Remix event in World of Warcraft and one of those characters is now the character I am starting to play in War Within. Similarly, in Final Fantasy XIV I already have five jobs at level 100 and am continuing to level more as I do daily content. Before Endwalker released I pushed everything that I had on my account to level 80 and while I think I burnt myself out in the process… I also had a hell of a lot of fun experience with all of these different gameplay styles while doing content that was deeply familiar. I have at least a half dozen different Warriors scattered between multiple servers in World of Warcraft, and I enjoyed creating and leveling all of them.
I think the problem that I have with games that don’t have leveling… is that the characters I am playing oftentimes don’t feel like they are mine. Like I don’t really have a concept of “character” in roleplaying terms, but I have a deep investment in character as a sequence of my interactions and gearing decisions. All of my characters are me and in spite of playing on many a roleplaying server for the better sense of community… I don’t really do roleplay. However I remember when I acquired this item or that item, or when I got a new ability that I had been wanting and played with it for the first time. I remember each and every Path of Exile character when I managed to push across the line toward viability and was able to start ripping through content and farming it. Similarly, I have a stable of characters in Guild Wars 2, that I boosted that I feel almost no investment in.
Guild Wars 2 is really free with its character boosts, either in the form of partial boosts that come in the birthday gifts or the level 80 boosts that you end up getting each expansion. After seeing how much more I care about my Guardian while going through the process of leveling him… I feel like I might have robbed myself of a critical experience to enjoy these characters by taking those boosts. I’m legitimately contemplating deleting characters, and rerolling them over time so that I can expand my stable of characters in a more organic fashion. In truth… I am probably still going to use a boost to get a free set of gear, but I am planning on using it around 70-75 after I have already leveled through the content most of the way naturally. This character feels more “mine” than my baby Asuran Guardian that I boosted ever did.
In other news, I wrapped up my Griffon yesterday and now officially have every mount unlocked on my account. This one was a little bittersweet because despite all of this effort and expenditure of gold… I still don’t really like this mount. It feels like a worse version of the Skyscale, which I guess I already understood. Maybe it is better if you are crossing a large distance and starting at a really high vantage point… but getting up off the ground is miserable. One thing that I really wish Guild Wars 2 was better about is organizing all of these “system” unlocks into a category of Achievements. For example, if they had one place where you should see all of the Legendary item quests, all of the Mount quests, and anything that unlocks a specific system it would be far less obtuse to players. As it stands you essentially have to live on the Wiki in order to figure out how to do any of these things… which is a challenge as I am trying to determine what my next “long grind” is going to be.
I also spent some time yesterday crafting a new set of award badges for Blaugust 2024. I apologize to everyone who has participated this year because I have not really been engaged. August was a really rough month for me, and I have felt like I was largely phoning it in because I just did not have enough spoons for anything else. There were times this month that I thought I should have probably ended the event at the decade mark because I just was not feeling it. I think that is more the viewpoint into this specific month and how busy it has been and less about the event as a whole. I might start actually accepting more help in the planning and running of the event in future years though, and I have leaned way the hell more on my mentors than I have at any other time. Huge thanks to Jaedia and Magi who have carried a lot of the burden.
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