I have been sitting here at my desk trying to figure out how to muster the strength to make a blog post. When I write I do so from a generally good place, and try and harness hope and a sense of wonder about the things that matter to me. This morning I just can’t do that. I cannot seem to fake my way into thinking that everything is okay. Everything is not okay. My heart is broken after last night, and I just can’t have any joy to pour into this today. I am not going to go on at length about this, because I generally try and keep my actual blog a relatively politics and religion free zone. Suffice to say I do not live in the country that I imagined I did. I apologize to my readers for falling down on the job, but you really don’t want me trying to write in this current mindset. I am hoping beyond hope that I find a silver lining in this, because right now the future seems extremely bleak. I used to comfort myself with the belief that sanity would prevail, but I just don’t have that luxury anymore.
