This is a weird post and I am not exactly sure how to write it. I find myself contemplating a break from blogging, or at least greatly ratcheting down the amount that I spend writing. It feels like for awhile now I have been too little butter spread across way too much toast. There are so many times I sit down in front of the keyboard in the morning and I have no clue what I am going to talk about, and somewhere along the way a post comes out. The problem is… it isn’t usually a very good one. When I first started blogging I was full of ideas that I felt like I had to get out of my head to keep from bursting. However the rate at which those ideas regenerated was way slower than the time in which it took to drain the well dry. Partially it is that I don’t think what I am doing is all that interesting anymore. I am no longer playing any one game serious enough to be a reasonable source of information about it, and I am not playing enough games to really be any sort of interesting review source. I’ve fallen into this pattern of largely playing whatever I happen to be playing on a much more casual level than I used to, and as a result you see long strings of posts about my activity in Destiny, Diablo 3, Final Fantasy XIV and occasionally World of Warcraft. None of which is filled with that much useful information, nor do I really feel like I have enough personality to carry it off anymore.
I am not really sure what this means, but it all feels like I am forcing the daily blog to be a thing right now. In truth my blog was never really known for the quality of content, but more the quantity and I guess on some level that is a little bit depressing. Talking a lot without saying anything meaningful is not exactly my favorite thing. I know that I don’t want to do anything like nuke the blog from orbit… I am more the sort to simply let something rot on a server forever rather than delete it. The problem that I am having is that I wish I could blog with regularity… but also only do it when I have something worth talking about. I am not entirely certain if I am capable of doing something… but doing it intermittently. My life tends to be a series of routines, and once one is abandoned it tends to be gone forever. I am hoping that I can figure out how to blog when I actually want to be blogging rather than out of some sense of obligation or devotion depending on which day it is. It is my hope that by backing off from forcing myself to do this every morning… that I might be able to get some of my creativity back. I have this weird problem with when something feels like a job… it ruins the fun for me. There was a period of time when I used to love development… and now it is largely something I do to get a paycheck. Similarly I used to love sitting down in the morning and baring my soul for you all… but over time that too has started to feel like a job.
Here is hoping I can figure out a way to keep doing this blog… but recapture some of the fun. Regardless from this post forward we are entering a new phase of my blogging. If I have something to say I will say it. If I don’t however I will just peacefully drink my coffee in the morning and do something else.